I consider myself very blessed and incredibly lucky. I have a life that I couldn't have dreamed of. I was a tad bonkers in my late teens, a bit of a late bloomer combined with low self esteem, which led to me being a bit of a nightmare. So the life I have now I feel is an absolute blessing as much as it is a surprise. I never take any it for granted either, which is probably one of the reasons I wake up happy every day.
Agreed there's been some almighty blips along the way, but that's life. I'm very content and happy, I'm very grateful that I can find the positivity and joy in any given day. Probably more so since our little blips in all honesty.
For quite a while now though I have felt like I'm walking through fog, just to get going has been a challenge. I have been very anxious that I have some sort of dreadful disease or condition. Well on friday morning last week the veil of fog cleared well, not yet it hasn't but at least I now know why the fog is there and I can begin to get rid of all the horrid symptoms that have given me years of sleepless nights with fear and worry. I have a severe B12 deficiency...isn't that fantastic!! I mean it! It really is fantastic, It can be so easily resolved, I'm part way through the process now, I'm two jabs in of the six initial injections and then it's one injection every 12 weeks. It's such a relief.
Of course, No one really likes injections but they're fine, no bother at all, they sting for a second or two and then it's over.
I wish someone had thought to check my levels years ago, it would have saved me feeling like something from The Walking Dead for so long but never mind, I'm on my way to being back to normal soon, I can't wait! My husband reckons he's going to have to build a cage to keep me in as I'll be way to bouncy for them to cope with.. hahahahahahahah, here's hoping!
(I also think it's worth everyone getting tested for it. After all I have a very B12 food rich diet but it didn't help me at all).
Now I've just got to wait for the lingering effects of the Labrynthitis to go and I'm going to be like a machine! Suzanne 2.0!! If I've managed to do everything I have, in spite of a severe B12 deficiency just think what I'll be like after...hahahahahaha, I think it's more likely I'll just be able to stay up till 10pm or even after that, you know, like a grown up, who knows!
Friday night we had a wonderful night out in a restaurant in Ongar. Fine food, fab company, no leaks and virgin Mojito's all round, (which were absolutely delicious!) What more could you ask for. When you laugh till you cry you know it's a good night. :)
I have big news...well no, not that big in the grand scheme of things but I certainly have news. These jeans (above), no matter if you think I'm too old for ripped jeans, you're allowed your opinion of course, I'm just not terribly bothered by what that may be because I love them!
They're new jeans to my wardrobe. I bought them in Topshop, yes, I appreciate they're a younger brand and if I was flaunting my flab in a crop top and hot pants I'd agree I'd gone a step too far. But these jean's are super soft and super stretchy, and they are jeans like, in so much as they have a zip and a button. It really made a nice change from my pull on Eden jeggings (although I still very much love them it's nice to have a bit of a change). I went back to Topshop yesterday and bought another pair, plain blue denim this time and no rips. They are called Joni, the have a high waist and loads of stretch.
Now the weather is warming up here (comparatively speaking), I'm really loving having a white jeans option. I have some others but they don't have as much stretch in as the Joni's do. I love dressing nicely but it has to work for me. There's no point in a outfit that looks great but my bag leaks and I end up stinking. I'm funny like that ;)
Here's to friendship and here's to a fantastic summer!
On the subject of friendship, I have been blessed with amazing friends, friends that I consider more family than some of my family. But I also have enjoyed hearing from people who read my blog, so I'd like to say a huge thank you to those of you that message me and share your stories, solidarity and support. It's been at times eye opening and made me realise even more how lucky I am.